Unrequited Love

When he came into my life,  he saw the wealth of love,
accomplishment, and pride that I took in my life
How jealous he was
Never alone could he survive a week, much less be a success
However humble I always was, his envious ways sought to break me
In love I fell and attached to the dream of being loved for me
Left the door wide open for the deceit, the lies, and the breaking down of my senses
He saw my love and loyalty and made his first attempt to break me
Told me he loved me then disappeared for a year
Isn't that how you murder a soul?
After a year  he realized the job was not done
He came back to my life and promised our family would be one
Then he had a second chance to have his fun
Made sure the birth was the worst, made sure not to support me
Made sure I could not trust him, and began to steal what was mine
During the days he would see the love for my boys
Tommy could do no wrong
All I wanted to do was go for walks as a family and read to the babies
Why couldn't  I be allowed to be a mother and call the shots in the life I built from scratch?
I only needed minimal help to carry on
That minimal help was easy to deny me
They denied me simple breaks to just catch my breath
He denied me simple loyalty
And decided to bring home the poison, that set me off on a lonely path of destruction
They all stuck together to bring me down
And down I went to the sunshine state
I felt like everyone was better off without me
But to their dislike I still survived
My heart still bleeds everyday missing those boys
Karma is coming and she will be coming for those
who have abandoned and oppressed me and who want me to drown
This isn't the end I promise you that
One day her spell will break, the day that she dies
Maybe then I will be able to live, when the evil witch ceases to exist
As for Him, well his day is soon
He wont see it coming but he will feel the wrath
God doesn't like ugly
I'll end it with that.....

Unforgiven

I have been oppressed and abandoned my whole life
My mother planned to abandon me long before birth
At birth I was adopted into a family that falsely lead me to believe that I was loved and cared about.
As a child being told that you are loved and that you are the sunshine of their life, only to become a young teenager 12 years old, to learn that any love you receive is conditional
Conditional upon whether or not you do what they want you to do
One wrong decision away from being in exile
But its not their dream it mine
Just being is not convenient anymore and now they want me gone too
I'm sent back to a biological mother (Texas) who gave me away before my first breath
She doesn't want me either
I end up with strangers that show me more love than what i have known as family
They send me back to where I came from
From one place to another back and forth... Why don't they want me?
I'm only 14! I don't know about this world. I just want to eat and have my own room to sleep and be able to dress nice at school like everybody else
I just want to stay in one place so i can make friends.
I'm tired of being the new girl!
Back to Connecticut and the master manipulative women who is at this point oppressing me with the lies of her love
She makes sure i'm back just long enough to get settled
Then off again because her happiness is worth more than mine
However she is not smart like i am. She hates me for that i know
she can only cast spells, she is just a witch. She knows how to curse and she knows how to hurt and destroy
But she cant hold a job or be independent
Off to Florida here we go... Just when i thought i could be home.
Home is all I want.
She knows me and she knows how to destroy me.
I hope she goes to hell. And I hope she goes soon. Because 20 years later the spell is still going.
The spell has not broken. And what did I do to deserve the desertion, oppression, and pain?
I simply had a light inside of me that others wish they could have. So for that reason, I have been oppressed and abandoned my whole life.